I'm awake at 7 AM, an hour and a half before my alarm, for no reason at all once again!
I shouldn't be surprised, this is like normal now. Kind of a bummer when I think "ooouu it must be like 9 AM yes!" and it's...not.
I'M GONNA MAKE SOME OATMEAL. with an egg in it (if you haven't tried this, it's. a. mazing. STIR AN EGG AND MIX IT IN WHILE ITS COOKING, THEN ADD SOME CURRY POWDER)

I'm so glad it's Friday, I'm so glad it's Friday, I'm so glad it's Friday.
work @ 10, hopefully there's nothing eventful going on. Last week there were..counter protesters....to protest the protesters...so the original protesters were all stone faced and negative and brought a priest and the counter protesters sang "99 bottles of beer on the wall", wore interesting colors, and were laughing and stuff. I was like IF I WAS AN ALIEN, PRO-CHOICE LOOKS MUCH MORE INTERESTING AND LESS STICK UP BUTT
then the protesters put like red tape on their mouth to symbolize ~murder~ or some crap. Yeah except now you guys are super easy to ignore. good job.

last night my roommates decided to have a french toast party at 11:45 pm. it was pretty awesome, i love french toast * u * and my roomies.
...but not enough to like staying here over the weekend v much

I have a date with photoshop and sketchbook I NEED to go to. ...every night this week.

in closing,




( just one doodle )

my coworker has coffee and the smell makes me want syrupy pancakes. what the heck, I hate syrup ...a-and coffee. DX
weird cravvvviinnggsss.

so. this semester.
I'm tired. I'm realllyyyy tired. I wake up early and go to sleep kind of late (no later than 12) so I should be ok, but honestly, I'm TIRED. just putting that out there.

ANYWAYS, I actually don't mind. I complain endlessly but eh I know it's not too too bad and also this whole situation is totally my choice so...I need to stop complaining. unfortunately, tired=cranky. and I haven't had the chance to seriously draw or paint in a week so there's that too DX



I'M INTERRUPTING MY OWN ENTRY


JUST GOT EMAIL FROM MY BOSS SAYING I COULD COME IN AN HOUR LATER WYYAAA
this is good because according to my schedule I work until 12 and...I'm supposed to teleport apparently and be at the internship at 12. Now it's just 1 pm. BD I'm gonna....eat oatmeal!

( just one )

well, back at school...feeling ambivalent B)
I like being here, but this school's so isolated sometimes it feels super bizarre to go back. ALSO I MISS MY PET BUDS

also I just kinda randomly scored an internship? It seems like it should be more difficult but I guess I was the only one interested...awesome! unfortunately, if it all goes as planned, my schedule will now go from pretty laidback to....crazy all the time.
monday- intern 12-5 (?)
tuesday- class 8:30 AM-10 PM
wednesday- work 8:30- noon, intern 12:30-5 (?)
thursday- class 8:30-6
friday- work 8:30-4:30 FREEDOOMM

it'd be cool if the internship was paid but it probably isn't and I'm fine with that since no travel is involved! first internship, pretty excited!
thank gad weekends are still free. yay for school jobs wyaa

I kind of toyed with the idea of buying an art table at megacon this year but honestly, I don't think I'd be ready in time, it's expensive, and ...my stuff probably doesn't fit the type of art that sells there v well B/ I do like 3 fanarts a year and half of them are for movies and stuff, not anime.

blegh first class tomorrow!

( one arttt )

ok, let's look at last years resolutions:

1) STOP BEING SUCH A PANSY
uhh I guess I did this! I became much more confident this year. Well, at least, ok with myself. also, my major is turning me into an extreme business person: charming, manipulative, and always looking for new concepts and exciting but well planned risks!
2) STOP BEING SUCH A PANSY HERMIT
surprisingly, this happened, because of my jobs. being forced to talk to people really does wonders for my social skills! but then some creep ruined it for a while by trying to get up on me and sent me into shock. BUT I'M BACK, AND BETTER THAN BEFORE. I love the kids in my major and my teachers.
3) ....LOSE 4 INCHES, CONTINUE BEING SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE LOOKING
uhhh well I was doing well in summer, but the holiday season KILLED my usually healthy lifestyle. on the plus side, ran a 5k and started weightlifting!
4) GET ALL A'S/DEVELOP YOUR ART
YES YES YES ALL A'S
KINDA KINDA KINDA ART DEVELOPMENT
5) BE HAPPY, CONTENT, AND SATISFIED
...to be continued bahahah

new resolutions:

1) BE TOP OF THE CLASS, GET SOME SCHOLARSHIPS, AN INTERNSHIP
considering my major/year has 7 people in it...not...that...impossible I WANT THAT INTERNSHIP
2) STAY FOCUSED, START MEDITATING AGAIN
I wanna renew my connection to the world! I was happiest when i gave 10 minutes of my day to completely crushing on nature
3) BE A HEALTH FREAK
I want to be like that person who eats organic flax seed nuggets for dessert and can run 5k on their off day. bahaha, joking, I just have to make some steps to being a healthier me. (aka: don't count weight count looks and feeling) drink more water, eat more protein, move more.
4) ALL A's/ART
you know the drill
5) BE ENTHUSIASTIC AND CONTENT
always look for the next level!

bonus:
travel somewhere
keep up with penpals
work on not arguing so much with dad

( last bits of 2009 art )

ehhh xmas season is feeling a little rough. I'm not sure if my vitamin deficiency is acting up or I'm maturing or what, but I feel like I'm not doing enough for people at the same time that people seem to be constantly letting me down (not in like a whiny way just...i don't know, not impressed!) . my apathy issue is returning B| no good!

ONTO HAPPIER SUBJECTS
I bought all my xmas presents, now I just need to make some fudge or something to give out and everything will be sweet.
and I wanted to make a sugar free, yeast free dessert for my brother for xmas dinner so I was researching and looking at my options and...my mom buys pecan pie ingredients. niiiccee


I WANT DIMSUM/GELATO/MILK TEA/TARO FLAVOR STUFF/SASHIMI/BLINTZES
how is that for a craving! BD

btw please let me know if you get a card from me in the mail! should be on their way.

( recent stuff and a 2009 art recap )

DOES ANYBODY WANT POTENTIALLY LATE CHRISTMAS CARDS?!

the list
vadalia
hanz
lullabyte
duokinneas
invaderbuzzy

please leave your address here. comments are SCREENED


the next entry I make will be from my ROOM back home wyeeeee~
finals need to end now!

Just finished my first public 3K, right after my first treadmill one! BD My time was 31:48, not too too pathetic! AND I RAN STRAIGHT THROUGH (ok, I walked for like 1-2 minutes in the middle up a hill)

happy thanksgiving everyone~

guh help me I'm drowning

IN POSSIBILITIES

so, I've started unsuccessfully poking around for internships and somehow it JUST hit me- I'm still technically a citizen of England too. I'm not sure if that became neutral last year when I turned 18 or what but like...from what i'm seeing, the queen doesn't even allow you to get rid of your british citizenship ever. SO.

theoretically.

if the citizenship is dormant, and I renew it....INTERNSHIP IN ENGLAND?! MAYBE? I hope so because everything here is unpaid and far away. and I want 3 internships before senior year.
LET'S DO THIS
ugh I need to read up on this incredibly dry citizenship stuff...
like..."A British citizen has the right of abode in the United Kingdom and may return and resume residence in Britain at any time, regardless of being a dual national, provided that he has not made a formal declaration of renunciation of British citizenship as described in paragraph one above". Is that me?!


so I haven't drawn anything of note this week, because of work overload- i plan to remedy this tonight I guess BD


I could go for some chocolate covered marshmallows on a stick or a caramel apple or something (...why do I suggest these things to myself jeex)

DID EVERYONE HAVE A FABULOUS HALLOWEEN!?
I know I did...and gained like 5 lbs in candy/cake weight ` u '
my Halloween costume is under the cut as alwayssss

onto a more serious topic, this week is really no fun. so busy, not even going to bother listing all the crap going on!

also I thing something might be wrong with me or my diet or something. I can't stay asleep past 7/8 AM anymore, even if I go to bed around 1. Today I woke up at 6:20. ...no. I NEED THAT SLEEP
I need 8 hours or I look dead arghhh maybe I don't need that much and my body's trying to tell me? Then why are my eyes so shrimpy and purple when I wake up? rrajfdkjdjf I also woke up with a painful knot like stomach ache. yeeekkkyiiiaaa

( my costume! )

I forgot to actually write an entry. I try to stay at school 2 weeks at a time usually.

the second week, I'm clawing at the walls wanting to go home and eat some real homecooked food hahahah
I MISS MOM'S COOKING B\ I'm making some acorn squash now but...I just...want some chicken. (I'm a wimp and lazy when it comes to making chicken or fish)

so anyways, midterms are in full swing and ughh I'm ready for a vacation!
this weekend is HOWL O SCREAM with my bro and roomie, and sushi AND korean cuisine mmm ALL IN THE SAME DAY ughh cannot wait.
It's gonna clean out my budget until next paycheck though B\


buuuutttt I GOT A SECOND JOB. It's at the school's downtown gallery. Only 4 hours a week but hey that brings me right up to the 20 hour maximum for school. next week my second job starts, sweet sweet.




can't wait.

( not much art )

HEY I'M ALIVE STILL
barely
today I have a 700-900 word rough draft to turn in (not a problem usually, but...) on top of a SEVENTY FIVE MINUTE GROUP PRESENTATION to teach the class...
ON LIKE...10 PAGES OF MATERIAL
JUST DIE
DIE IN A FIRE


deepbreath so I'm a tad...rushed...

schedule today:
12:30-3:15: contemporary literature ughhh
3:30-6:15: presentation class
6:20-8:30: unfortunately timed presentation by cirque du soleil
for some perspective, the cirque presentation...well, if you were guarenteed a seat (I was), they make you come in by 6:20, after which they give away seats. It takes place in the auditorium.
....my class ends at 6:15. it is located 10 minutes away from the auditorium
I am going to have to fuching book. it. to. that auditorium
Or just leave class like "SHRUG, CAN'T STAY " B\

also I'm gonna be hungry like a mafaka.

on the bright side- cirque du soleil casting director presentation! wyyaaa
also, after today, the weekenddd ahhh


Oh, I saw Inglourious Basterds. bahahaha that was good, very weird though. satisfying!


( I've found that drawing is the perfect procrastinator: relaxing yet productive )

I hate facebook because it tells me the minute that one of my fav shops finishes baking fresh cupcakes SCREW YOU FACEBOOK ALWAYS TELLING ME WHEN NEW SMOOTHIE RECIPES ARRIVE OR CUPCAKES ARE DONE OR CARAMEL APPLES ARE HALF OFF


I am v. v. tired. Not a lot of sleep the past two nights due to hw and class.
I also am trying to hold out buying food until the weekend.
I'm also trying to keep up my gym everyday.
all of this has combined to make me feel in great need of some sleep. tomorrow is hell day, and then ahhhh freedoommmmmm time to go home.

so sleeppyyyy...I am feeling Halloween! LET'S DO THIS


sorry for the pointless entry, have some art.


( artttt )

so I finished code geass.



.....je-heeeeeeeezuhs
I felt like throwing up, laughing, and crying all at once.


MOVING ON

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL- complete!
Wow I love my classes BD ...well, 3 of them. Two I am ambivalent towards, due to uninteresting teachers.

umm apartment dorm is AWESOMEMEEKjSDFdfs gad SO much better than last year. There's space, it's in good condition, balcony, kitchen...amazing. we need some artwork or something on the walls.

ANDDDD I got a job! YES

I'M NOT MAKING IT UP. starting monday, I work for the student life office on campus, which is awesome because...manageable hours, on campus. NO REAPPLYING AT KOHL'S FOR ME BD

so. yes. life is going EXACTLY ACCORDING TO PLAN...

SO. last night was my first night in the fabulous new dorm!
It's so big and....awesome compared to last year. 4 PRIIVVAATEEE ROOMSSs, and a main area with a kitchen and dining room. College will be much better this year B)
we all stayed up until like 2 AM because no one felt like sleeping bahaha
we..need a plunger . _ .

End of summer was ok! Got to Epcot and the beach one more time.
Then yesterday was blast offfff! My feet hurt so bad by the end of the day, constant moving arouunndd. For celebration we got thai food BD


NEXT OBJECTIVE: GET A JOB. NEED. I have 4 days off a week, I NEED. A. JOB. or I'm just gonna end up wasting gas driving back and forth to my house.


dude loving G Dragon's album drop by the way, THE LEADERS! such a good beat.
( I also managed to do some art before I left )

finally finished painting granny's house! phew, painting is...oddly tiring B\
just kinda riding out the dying breaths of summer vacation, and getting ready to...get ready, pack up half my room and ship out!
Hopefully I can find a job on campus or something, otherwise the budget won't be pretty...but, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it B)

today I'm gonna go see G FORCE with my friends, and then...thursday is disneeyyyy! With mom and bro! Kind of ridiculously excited (admission is freeeeeeee) just trying to decide between Magic Kingdom or Epcot B\


and uhh finally took a chance and tried Code Geass, and I'm actually paying attention! and...LIKING IT. haha it's not INCREDIBbBLEEee but...the story's good and the art is pretty. and the main character's mildly psychotic, I can dig it!


I painted my nails! inspired by park bom. hahaha


question...does anyone have any interesting ghost experiences? I have a ton but I want to hear something new.

A floating angel of death? With armor and wings and stuff. And a split, tiny helmeted head.




....um. What do you see?!

today I am nineteen
yesterday I was eighteen
worst haiku ever


I'M FINALLY 19

19
19
1999999999!!!1
SOUNDS OLDER THAN 20
BUT IT'S REALLY NOT
THE AGE WHERE NOTHING FUN HAPPENS
19
GRAB YOUR BOOTS AND LET'S HAVE ...A GOOD....19 DAY!!




I swear I'm not mentally challenged/drunk/any combination of those two or anything pertaining to ineffective mental processes.
I'M JUST SO DANG EXCITED FOR NO REAL REASON!
/wishing this was sarcastic but it's really not

ughhh there's a brown recluse in my room
I think I failed in it's termination. normally I'd let it chill but..i'm not too keen on the potential necrosis of my limbs B\
Projected location of target: somewhere near my feet, underneath desk.

in other news...
I stupidly bought a blu ray disk of advent children thinking it would work on a DVD player ALSO, not just squint worthy on the small tv..no. also I need a HD cable apparently, so I said screw it and ordered an additional copy with this gift card I got like 4 years ago so I got ~*~*~*collectors edition*~*~*~ for cheap yay.

uhhh. I don't know it makes me feel ESPECIALLY stupid because I hate wasting moneyyy

speaking of money, yay for free birthday offering coupons! ...not so yay for it all being ice cream (not good with lactose) BUT I SHALL distribute amongst my family and friends.
Also, I get a free gelato so I'm saving that for maybe my birthday? since everyone's working.


I'M GOING TO BE 19 YEARS OLD SOON, WONDER WHAT WILL GO DOWN THIS YEAR

for JELLYFISHYYYYYY (click for the big version)
( cuttlefish cupcake doodles, and pics from boston! )

waaahh I think I'm having like a midsummer crisis.
i can't focus on ANYTHING for more than like...5 minutes.
Maybe it's the impending bday. but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it!

anyways, fluhhh, slacking a bit artwise, still trying to wrangle up a job, painting my grandma's house in the downtime. toying with the idea of buying FF7: Advent Children, I have the weirdest urge to watch it, and dling 8239823 parts just doesn't seem worth it when I can pop it in the big screen, but ...rughh it's hard to fufill in SUCH IMPULSIVE FRIVOLITIES

umm yeah so. possibly going insane, not sure if I care, boy I could use some TEA or something right now.



( I need to get back into the swing of drawing everyday )